just 4 u Pn Suzanah....

mom...u are the preetiest women in the world...

yet many people say this to their mom, but it is trully come from the bottom of my heart

without u i cant breathe in this world,,,

i've seen u crying,sad, emotional,happy, angry, enjoy, n so on...

but u never say word fed up to me..

u know what? this is ur character actually.....

firstly...u are very happy go lucky u know,

and on the same time,,u have the teenager spirit on the same time...

but...this is how i feel...

when the other people there,

other than me..the attention n joyful is more towards them...

sometimes u never talk to me back if im talking to u..

i know that u are stress or what ever,,

but,,,could u please treat me as the other people?

some times u scold me in front of people...

u are yelling at me...

u suddenly angry about something that i think would be a joke 4 u...

i just wanna make u feel happy...

sometimes u never satisfied with what ever that i ve done..

i tried mom..please appreciate it..

u will redo it and start multerring,,

u really want me to copy n paste urself,

i have my on way to do what i like ma..

u like to compare with the others,

like they are good enough..

do u realise thats hurt me...becoz u are not knowing about them well

its just their outside appearance,

and another thing,,,,,

u scold me just becoz i couldnt find my things...

after a long time i think back............................

downloading what the meaning of treating me like that...

u are wiered..really wiered..

but u kow what..

u r the greatest mom ever...

because of what...?

u never hipokrit in front of me...

u will show what u feel n what is your condition on that time..

u never cheat me...u really be ur self infront of me..

now i understand..

i also dont want to see u smile in front of me, but hurts inside..

let it go mom....show what u feel...if u want to tell me..ofcourse u can ma..

u want me to beat the rest...

u want me to be the best,,thats why u compare me..

u want me to be as good as possible..

for me..all the mom in the world want their child to be such a good person....

just the way they treat us are differ from the others,

we need to understand them in order to be a good child....

every nite u say i luv u to me,every day u pray 4 me,

every day you work 4 me,,,,and everyday what u do is jst 4 ur beloved child....

thanks mama...i luv u so much....sorry if im hurting u..i cant say this in front of u...but only this that i can afford to do..thanks ma..i love u!

last ly... i got it...

what im thinking right now.... i m not kind of poetic person just wanna try..hahan

ecok nk blk reye...seronok r pe lgi,,,x pernh terpikir pasal org len..yg betol2 dlm kple otak..mama n ayah n the other family..ah srunuk....mase kicik2...b4 sek tadika...

seronok raye,,,mmg dah sah2 dok umah...tunggu cik minah anta baju raye..

teman mama buat kuih,,,,tggu along balik sekolah...tggu ayah balik or tokmn datg bawak laok buke,,,

sronok time tu..

x pikir pape,,hari2 seronok..kdg2 nakal sampai kne marah...da raye sronok sngt,,,,kutip duet raye..

x bleyh blah sedare nak dtg umah pon boleh rse bedebar2..

x taw r ape yg dtunggu,,,ish2....

da besar ckit...aicece,...

da mule nak melaram..kne pakai gelang r ape r..

tp x nak...

eee...yek...geli..ti sume pompuan nak pakai..

ape sume tu ..x nak r mama..

tp still pkir seronok...

maen mercun ngn along..time ni da bleh pegang api da...klo x, slalu kne dok jaoh2

masok da naek form....bile nak raye,,jd gedik da..

tggu org yg d nnti nak blik,padahal bkn nye jmpe pon..

agak je da balik ke blom..ntah pape....

masok matrix..ha..ni start rase pedih...

first time pose jaoh....

sdh sgt..nth nape time raye ni r baru kng jase parents,

cri didikan mereka, wajah2 drg...cr kite brcakap ngn dorg,,

ha...amek nyesal...tp x r nyesal sngt sbb kite taw ape yng kite wat..

x prnh lupe ape pesann mereke sudeh..

then..sampai la skng...

smkn hari khdupan smkin serius..

family situation also is not all the same,

masalh luaran masih bnyk dari dalamn..

cne mama ngn ayah bleh sabar?

tenang,,,handal betol..

wlomacm ape pon masalh very the relax..

tp anak2 jgn ade chan wat salah..

sesekali kne marah mmng perit...

org len wat salh x pe plk,,kdg2 rase not fair..

tp..lelame pkir..its all about familly first...

biar yg buruk tu nmpk kat kite tp niat baek,'jgn perangai n niat buruk pure2 baek'

spesis yg sgt x digemari,,,

its looks like wanna take my familly from me,

bkn ape,,,biar salah mne pon...besr ape pon kslhn die,,,

my parents still can give chance to them...

tp tu r...klo x krne cr didikn sedemikian xkan nye ade sampai thap n peringkat ni...

thn ni rse lbh bermakne,,,

sbb...rase jaoh...rse masalah yg luar biase,,,

rase pengalamn idop ngn kawan2 yang x same ngn family...

testing,,testing....